I would be lying if I did not say I was stressed out right now. But in the end, I have found I am stressed because I am not patient. I am not taking my time to enjoy what I am going through. I am rushing through everything and attempting to live at the same time.
Seriously, look my my schedule... I have everything planned out, almost to when I would even be going to the bathroom and where. Talk about boring. I have found my stress comes when things are not going to plan. I CANNOT BELIEVE I AM A PLAN GUY! I grew up despising those people and thinking little of them... Now I have ALL the respect in the world for them.
BUT I am beginning to change from that. I mean, do not get me wrong, I am very adaptable, however, I get stressed if it is my plan we have to go from. ESPECIALLY when I can't do something because of my scdeule. It was a CRAZY week.
However, I am learning again how to find God. It sounds simple to think about, but it is a moment by moment thing. Yes, I gave my life to Christ when I was 8, but I have been fighting for years to still know Him.
Keep prayin. Working out it great! Let me know how you need prayer or encouragment!
God Bless,
Casey
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Long LONG day!
Today was just too long. I had so much I had to do. It reminded me of the days I was running away from! I sadly could not work out tonight, and the pain in my back is slowly coming back.
However I am still optimistic! I can still do this!!
On a happier note, I get a break from Grand Forks this weekend with a trip to the cities! I can't wait!
Sorry for the short post, but just wanted to update!
However I am still optimistic! I can still do this!!
On a happier note, I get a break from Grand Forks this weekend with a trip to the cities! I can't wait!
Sorry for the short post, but just wanted to update!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Level of Confidence
Man, was I sore and tired today after last nights work out! I am excited to get this week done with. SOO many things happening! (Also, as a point of confession, I hate dealing with the parking ticket office, by the end of the conversation, I had no clue what I was saying anymore or what I am suppose to do. Not to mention I probably did something illegal to begin with... JEEPERS!!)
Anywho.
This will be a short update. I need some recipes. I am starting to become a little more adventurous, plus I plan out my meals! So that is fun.
I still have a lot to learn in life. And that is sometimes the hardest part. I wonder what am I suppose to be doing, or what should I be doing. It is not an easy thing to do.
I will say this, I am starting to enjoy the mystery of life more. I still have a lot to learn.
More importantly, I am learning a lot about behavior. I am learning that relapsing in old habits is normal and expected. To think that one can stop cold turkey without relapse is only going to lead to a lot of guilt. I think that is where my heart is trying to work out right now. I am dealing with all the gunk inside my life that I have built up for years. I am recognizing Christ more in some ways. Some days, I recognize Christ as right next to me, and other days (sometimes in long stints) I can barely even remember Christ and what Christ's Love truly means. I just have to battle through that.
Thank you all for the support! let me know how I can pray for you!
-Casey
Anywho.
This will be a short update. I need some recipes. I am starting to become a little more adventurous, plus I plan out my meals! So that is fun.
I still have a lot to learn in life. And that is sometimes the hardest part. I wonder what am I suppose to be doing, or what should I be doing. It is not an easy thing to do.
I will say this, I am starting to enjoy the mystery of life more. I still have a lot to learn.
More importantly, I am learning a lot about behavior. I am learning that relapsing in old habits is normal and expected. To think that one can stop cold turkey without relapse is only going to lead to a lot of guilt. I think that is where my heart is trying to work out right now. I am dealing with all the gunk inside my life that I have built up for years. I am recognizing Christ more in some ways. Some days, I recognize Christ as right next to me, and other days (sometimes in long stints) I can barely even remember Christ and what Christ's Love truly means. I just have to battle through that.
Thank you all for the support! let me know how I can pray for you!
-Casey
Friday, January 21, 2011
It is what it is!
I took my first day off. I was not feeling well, I was exhausted, and I had some aches. I sadly woke up with them too. I was informed to just take a small break, as long as you promise yourself to get back into it. They also told me that being Healthy is not about getting to the gym every moment, but resting, eating right, and challenging yourself.
Welp, as much as it pains me to say that I feel defeated after not going last night, I am happy to tell you my small victories. I usually play cards, but when I do, I usually eat just tons of terrible food for you. Last night, I had dinner after my financial class, and I am pumped to say that when I went to play cards, I had 4 Bagel crisps bites, one peach-O and one chocolate turtle... Usually it is MUCH more!! It was proud mostly because I chose to drink water too! usually it is some sugary drink. The best part was, it was as if it were natural for me to ask for water! It just felt good!
Now, I am taking the Dave Ramsey Financial University class, and I must say, even after the first lesson, I am pumped! My mind is already changing, and I hope my actions follow! Plus, I LOVE the support! All of you should consider being a part of it!!
Anywho, Enjoy your day, and if you are in the tundra of ND... STAY WARM!!!
God Bless,
Casey
Welp, as much as it pains me to say that I feel defeated after not going last night, I am happy to tell you my small victories. I usually play cards, but when I do, I usually eat just tons of terrible food for you. Last night, I had dinner after my financial class, and I am pumped to say that when I went to play cards, I had 4 Bagel crisps bites, one peach-O and one chocolate turtle... Usually it is MUCH more!! It was proud mostly because I chose to drink water too! usually it is some sugary drink. The best part was, it was as if it were natural for me to ask for water! It just felt good!
Now, I am taking the Dave Ramsey Financial University class, and I must say, even after the first lesson, I am pumped! My mind is already changing, and I hope my actions follow! Plus, I LOVE the support! All of you should consider being a part of it!!
Anywho, Enjoy your day, and if you are in the tundra of ND... STAY WARM!!!
God Bless,
Casey
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wowzers.... Sore.
Today, I admit, last night was a hard work out. I had to stick with aerobic, because I was exhausted and had some aches, and it was suggested that I be careful with my shoulder.
Back story- I have a bad shoulder and knee.
Anywho, moral of the story is, be patient. I am learning about patience right now. I am learning that when I look in the mirror I need to look at myself, and not the image of what I "should" be. In the end, that seems to be worthless. When I look in the mirror I am learning that I am constantly being me. What else is greater than that... Nothing. Even though I felt like such a slacker, I realized the whole moral of the story is not to starve myself, or to run until I lose ten pounds, the story is about all this healing that I need. ON the outside, I was fine, but on the inside, God only knows what was going on. See, I am taking active steps toward Christ, and finding out what I was really missing out on.... It is not easy.
I am realizing though, that life is better lived, being honest, not just about how I feel but about who I am!
I am sore today, and tired... it is has been a long day... But I am alive. I am well. I am thankful!
Let me know how I can be prayin for yaw!
God Bless,
Casey
Back story- I have a bad shoulder and knee.
Anywho, moral of the story is, be patient. I am learning about patience right now. I am learning that when I look in the mirror I need to look at myself, and not the image of what I "should" be. In the end, that seems to be worthless. When I look in the mirror I am learning that I am constantly being me. What else is greater than that... Nothing. Even though I felt like such a slacker, I realized the whole moral of the story is not to starve myself, or to run until I lose ten pounds, the story is about all this healing that I need. ON the outside, I was fine, but on the inside, God only knows what was going on. See, I am taking active steps toward Christ, and finding out what I was really missing out on.... It is not easy.
I am realizing though, that life is better lived, being honest, not just about how I feel but about who I am!
I am sore today, and tired... it is has been a long day... But I am alive. I am well. I am thankful!
Let me know how I can be prayin for yaw!
God Bless,
Casey
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Count on me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GwMvlNLV8ZU
I am typically not a fan of Hip-Hop (partially because I tend to break into random dance), but this is a catchy song. I really appreciate it too!
Last night was aerobic and legs... Needless to say, "going hard" for the last 5 minutes exhausted me. It killed me it seemed, but yet, I am looking forward to another day of going to the gym. I must admit, that I am pretty dang tired, but this week is flyin by, and pretty soon, I can say I have two weeks done... TWO WEEKS!!!
Apart from this, I will be also taking a Financial class with my church. I am interested seeing that I have no clue what the next year of my life will bring. I pray I am following the leading of Christ, and that I am involved with a job that I am passionate about.
Now, what I am asking for these next few days are some good and cheap recipes! I have been eating healthier food, but I am ready for some new meals!! Although, I am still in love with Chicken and Rice!!
Let me know how I can be praying for you! Send me an e-mail, leave a comment or text!
Much Love
Casey
E-Mail- casey.s.hayden@gmail.com
Cell- 651-470-4967
I am typically not a fan of Hip-Hop (partially because I tend to break into random dance), but this is a catchy song. I really appreciate it too!
Last night was aerobic and legs... Needless to say, "going hard" for the last 5 minutes exhausted me. It killed me it seemed, but yet, I am looking forward to another day of going to the gym. I must admit, that I am pretty dang tired, but this week is flyin by, and pretty soon, I can say I have two weeks done... TWO WEEKS!!!
Apart from this, I will be also taking a Financial class with my church. I am interested seeing that I have no clue what the next year of my life will bring. I pray I am following the leading of Christ, and that I am involved with a job that I am passionate about.
Now, what I am asking for these next few days are some good and cheap recipes! I have been eating healthier food, but I am ready for some new meals!! Although, I am still in love with Chicken and Rice!!
Let me know how I can be praying for you! Send me an e-mail, leave a comment or text!
Much Love
Casey
E-Mail- casey.s.hayden@gmail.com
Cell- 651-470-4967
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
New Week, New Plan
First, I will admit, I was not AS healthy as I wanted to be this weekend, but, I will say, it is the first time in a LONG time that it was in moderation. That is a huge plus. Not to mention, I borrowed a projector this weekend, some may think it was the worst idea ever, I, on the other hand find it to be incredibly awesome. It was a great time of community and playing games from my High School years. Man did it rekindle my passion to play video games! Also we watched how to train your dragon... Talk about a tear jerker... It was great!
BUT Now a quick update! I worked out last night, and man did it kill! It seems that I was just down right exhausted after the work out. I decided to go a little harder in my aerobic part of the work out and it just killed me! However, I am blessed to say that I made it. I am finding a way were I am making time to work out and be healthy. I am making my lunch, and eating it all. I feel alert when I need to be and tired early so I am not up until the crack of dawn.
However, do not let me deceive you in saying that everything is going for me. I woke up with my first injury too. My lower back muscle (Gluteus Minimus/ or Lats) hurt really bad, thankfully they feel a million times better with a heating pad. Usually in the past I have been known to just stop working out, but not this time, I actually went and worked through the pain (ok, in reality I just was careful and was gentle with the muscle.)
I have learned something to add to this journey:
BUT Now a quick update! I worked out last night, and man did it kill! It seems that I was just down right exhausted after the work out. I decided to go a little harder in my aerobic part of the work out and it just killed me! However, I am blessed to say that I made it. I am finding a way were I am making time to work out and be healthy. I am making my lunch, and eating it all. I feel alert when I need to be and tired early so I am not up until the crack of dawn.
However, do not let me deceive you in saying that everything is going for me. I woke up with my first injury too. My lower back muscle (Gluteus Minimus/ or Lats) hurt really bad, thankfully they feel a million times better with a heating pad. Usually in the past I have been known to just stop working out, but not this time, I actually went and worked through the pain (ok, in reality I just was careful and was gentle with the muscle.)
I have learned something to add to this journey:
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